My Soul Mates: Chris Suter & Jessica Dale

"There is no such thing as the perfect soul mate. If you meet someone and you think they are perfect, you better run as fast as you can in the other direction 'cause your soul mate is the person that pushes your buttons, pisses you off on a regular basis, and makes you face your shit." - Madonna

I'm currently on a mission to rid my life of negative bullshit, and I'm sure you all have caught on to that. I've been righting wrongs, doing good things, and mending relationships that need mending. I'm not doing this because I feel like I don't have enough, or that I'm not happy or satisfied with what I have...I'm doing it because I'm not a negative person, and I don't like negative things or situations that bring me down. Being on good terms with everyone that I care about is a step in the positive direction, and that's pretty convenient because that's exactly where I plan to end up. 

Now, I've always been one to joke about "soul mates"....declaring Stinky Charlie as my "vehicular soul mate"...and my Chuck Taylor's as my "feet soul mates"...and so on and so forth. Pretty much anything that is my favorite, is my soul mate in whatever category I stick it in. Following that pattern, I'm sure you can guess that when I say I've been blessed with two soul mates, Chris Suter & Jessica Dale, I mean that they are indeed my one love and my best friend. 

I feel like after a solid day of telling people that I love them and that I'm sorry for anything I may have done to cause distance between us, that I need to take the time to give a big huge shout out to the ones who have stood strong right beside me for the last year. Even when the times were tough and they didn't like me, these two never left. :)

Looking back on the last year, it's definitely been just the three of us during all the good times and bad. We give each other shit, we make fun of each other, we piss each other off, we fight, we cry, we challenge each other constantly...and one of us has even been known to bite the other two's toes but I won't point any elbows! We're pretty much a hot ass mess, but one thing is for sure - there never is a dull moment. I love these two people with all my heart, and no matter how much they argue and fight - they love each other too. To hear Chris tell it, Jdale is annoying and ridiculous - but then she gets sick and he gets her a cold rag for her head. To hear Jdale tell it, Chris is lame and sensitive - but then he gets a day off work and she can't wait to get to our house and hang out with him. There have been times when we could have just as soon shot each other than anything - like the time Chris got us stuck in wet grass and ruined our river day...or the time that I had to move shit out of my trailer and it was 110 degrees, but not matter what the situation may be - we're always there for each other. At this point it seems like if one of the three of us isn't there, something is missing and we're trying to find it. I'm extremely blessed to have these two people in my life and I don't intend on neglecting them in any way shape or form. My life wouldn't complete if I didn't have my soul mates. 

I just wanted to put it out there that I am extremely appreciative of these two people, and that I love them with all my heart. I know for a fact that these two will stand up and block bullshit off my ass in the time of need, because they've proven themselves time and time again and I consider these two to be my first string players! There will never be another combination of people that have a similar relationship to the one that the three of us share, and I'm very lucky to be a third of this trio. The only way we could be cooler would be if our names were Larry, Curly & Moe......or Simba, Pumbaa & Timon. :) (Jdale would be Pumbaa, because she farts.)

I guess that's all I have to say today, it's about time for me to make like a tree and leave work! Y'all stayed tuned, if there is anything groundbreaking I'll be sure to report! :)

Happy Weekend, folks! 

My Fall From Grace.

"Well, my fall from grace was a sight to see. Good turned to bad, and bad turned to misery. I found out what it is and what it's not, and all I asked for sure ain't what I got." - Blackberry Smoke

I'm not one who is normally bummed out, and if I get that way I usually don't stay that way for long. It seems recently though, I've been hit with an abundance of shit, and it's been weighing on my mind a lot more than it used to. I'm having a hard time letting shit roll off my back. And on top of that, somehow I've gotten myself into this mindset of "less is more"...thinking that the less of other people's crap I had to deal with the better off I'd be. However what I didn't take into account was that also meant when I was in need of someone to deal with my crap - there wouldn't be a huge support system there for me to fall back on. 

I can't quite put my finger on where I came up with this grand idea, or maybe I can - but that's not the point. The point is, I've never in my life looked at someone and said, "Dang, I sure don't have many friends." I mean hell, I'm the ultimate party planner...I've always been able to throw some shit together and pack a house. But today, I probably couldn't even pack a shed if I had one. What's sad is that it took finding myself in a real life mess that was better than fiction to realize that, you know what? I was wrong. Less is not more, more is more. Taken from a recently made wave: you can never have enough people that care about you. 

"It's gonna be important that you have your star player in line. Then you gonna have to make sure that you got your team set up, and some of us been forgetting to set up our team. You gonna need people that you know for a fact will jump in a block bullshit off your ass in a time of crisis. You gonna need that." - Katt Williams

And now that I've realized that I've alienated myself from everyone for no good damn reason, I've decided that I have to do what I have to do to fix that. Last night, while I was laying awake thinking about all this, and trying to figure out how in the world to go about fixing all that I've broken, I grabbed my phone to see what time it was...it was 3:00 am, and I had a text message from my "swister" telling me that she saw something that reminded her of me, and that even though we don't see each other often, she wanted me to know that I was still in her heart. She even signed it with x's & o's. That text message alone was all the motivation I needed...I read it and thought about how rarely I see her, then I thought about how dearly I love her, then I thought about how I need to get up off my ass and fix not only my relationship with her, but all the relationships that I've neglected. 

With all that being said, many of you are about to get a personal written apology for anything I may or may not have done that has caused us to either grow apart or stop talking. Whether or not these apologies make a difference to you or not is up to you, of course....but after they are sent I'll at least know that I tried and that I've made it known that I am working on getting my star player in line....and that I'm willing to play on your teams again. 

"A friend is one that knows you as you are, understands where you have been, accepts what you have become, and still, gently allows you grow." - William Shakespeare